Week 31: Belief?

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“Space inside your womb is becoming increasingly scarce for your baby, making its movements less dramatic and slower, almost as if your little one is practicing a synchronized swimming routine. The fetal position is becoming a familiar position to her. Your baby can now use all of the 5 senses. She is busy looking around, practicing breathing, grabbing whatever is in reach, tasting amniotic fluid and listening to the sound of both you and your partners voice. If you’re carrying twins, there is even less space for your babies to move and they made decide to make an early appearance this month. Your baby will weigh about 3 and a half pounds at this points and measure around 42.4cm from crown to heel.

Your uterus is now about 5 inches above your belly button. This leaves so little room for your organs that breathlessness, constipation and heartburn are becoming facts of life. Due to the hormone relaxin, your hip joints are softening in preparation for child birth and you may begin to feel like a duck, waddling from place to place. Your baby may be head down at this point and pushing its way towards the birth canal. If Braxton Hicks contractions become painful or regular, it’s time to call your caregiver, especially if you feel like you may be in early, active or hard labour.”- My Pregnancy App- Health & Parenting Ltd.

Nausea is the word of the week. This week I have really felt like a bag of shit, on and off. The only thing that appears to keep it at bay is eating, and eating constantly is impossible! Not only that, I’m getting full super quick again so I can’t really eat that much. I’ll eat, feel good for all of 20 minutes and then feel poop again. It comes in waves and there’s no rhyme or reason for it anymore. Earlier on I used to get morning-sickness-in-the-afternoon, now it comes and goes when it pleases, it has no curfew anymore!

Restless legs still haunt my evenings and PGP is still there ready to pounce when I walk around for longer than an hour; making cleaning and tidying a nightmare at a time where I really want to clean and tidy everything all the time! *sigh*. I’ve only had two episodes of my recurring dreams this week, which is an improvement!

I am feeling the baby hiccupping regularly now, at least that’s what I’m 99% sure she’s doing! I don’t know what else would make her jolt frequently and almost in a rhythmically timed beat! Her movements are slowing down on last week. She still moves fairly regularly, which helps keep my fears at bay, but it’s not quite the same as it was before. Her movements are slow and objects stick out of me now and I’m starting to get better at guessing what these objects actually are!

This week I had my 31 week doctor’s appointment which went well. My fundal height is exactly 31cm so I’m on track there and my glucose test results came back as normal, so no pre-diabetes, gestational diabetes or any other form or diabetes for me to worry about! Baby is still head down but not engaged which is right for the gestation.

This week I allowed myself a moment where I actually believed everything was going to be ok; just for a moment. This is something I haven’t done before. I actually stopped and thought, “This is it, and she’s going to be ok. She’s going to be here soon. I’m going to be able to take her home, feed her and cuddle her and she’ll be all mine, it’s really happening!” What a lovely feeling it is to be overwhelmed with excitement!! I sharply brought myself back down to earth however. It’s not over yet. I can’t afford to get too excited yet. I can’t afford to admit this might be ok. I can’t afford to jinx it!

Although I think on some level my subconscious must be slowly coming round to be possibility it may all be ok. I’m having less panic attacks and even less scary dreams- this is surely a sign of belief right? I like to think positive thoughts for the baby at much as I can, but that doesn’t mean I’ve walked through this pregnancy with rose-tinted glasses, quite the opposite in fact. I’ve been weary of getting my hopes up too much in case they get dashed again…

Preparations at home continue and we’ve almost finished sorting out the living room. It’s so close to be how I want it! There are still bits to do in ALL the rooms at home; however, the list is decreasing as the weeks go on. I’m certain we will be ready by 30th May which was the date I set for everything to be complete! I have picked out the cot and am ordering that this week so that’s another item off the list too!

Highlight of the week? I have 6 weeks, YES 6 WEEKS left until I should go maternity leave from work! I can’t believe how fast the time is going!
Low of the week? Nausea, nausea, nausea!!!

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