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Week 31: Belief?


“Space inside your womb is becoming increasingly scarce for your baby, making its movements less dramatic and slower, almost as if your little one is practicing a synchronized swimming routine. The fetal position is becoming a familiar position to her. Your baby can now use all of the 5 senses. She is busy looking around, practicing breathing, grabbing whatever is in reach, tasting amniotic fluid and listening to the sound of both you and your partners voice. If you’re carrying twins, there is even less space for your babies to move and they made decide to make an early appearance this month. Your baby will weigh about 3 and a half pounds at this points and measure around 42.4cm from crown to heel.

Your uterus is now about 5 inches above your belly button. This leaves so little room for your organs that breathlessness, constipation and heartburn are becoming facts of life. Due to the hormone relaxin, your hip joints are softening in preparation for child birth and you may begin to feel like a duck, waddling from place to place. Your baby may be head down at this point and pushing its way towards the birth canal. If Braxton Hicks contractions become painful or regular, it’s time to call your caregiver, especially if you feel like you may be in early, active or hard labour.”- My Pregnancy App- Health & Parenting Ltd.

Nausea is the word of the week. This week I have really felt like a bag of shit, on and off. The only thing that appears to keep it at bay is eating, and eating constantly is impossible! Not only that, I’m getting full super quick again so I can’t really eat that much. I’ll eat, feel good for all of 20 minutes and then feel poop again. It comes in waves and there’s no rhyme or reason for it anymore. Earlier on I used to get morning-sickness-in-the-afternoon, now it comes and goes when it pleases, it has no curfew anymore!

Restless legs still haunt my evenings and PGP is still there ready to pounce when I walk around for longer than an hour; making cleaning and tidying a nightmare at a time where I really want to clean and tidy everything all the time! *sigh*. I’ve only had two episodes of my recurring dreams this week, which is an improvement!

I am feeling the baby hiccupping regularly now, at least that’s what I’m 99% sure she’s doing! I don’t know what else would make her jolt frequently and almost in a rhythmically timed beat! Her movements are slowing down on last week. She still moves fairly regularly, which helps keep my fears at bay, but it’s not quite the same as it was before. Her movements are slow and objects stick out of me now and I’m starting to get better at guessing what these objects actually are!

This week I had my 31 week doctor’s appointment which went well. My fundal height is exactly 31cm so I’m on track there and my glucose test results came back as normal, so no pre-diabetes, gestational diabetes or any other form or diabetes for me to worry about! Baby is still head down but not engaged which is right for the gestation.

This week I allowed myself a moment where I actually believed everything was going to be ok; just for a moment. This is something I haven’t done before. I actually stopped and thought, “This is it, and she’s going to be ok. She’s going to be here soon. I’m going to be able to take her home, feed her and cuddle her and she’ll be all mine, it’s really happening!” What a lovely feeling it is to be overwhelmed with excitement!! I sharply brought myself back down to earth however. It’s not over yet. I can’t afford to get too excited yet. I can’t afford to admit this might be ok. I can’t afford to jinx it!

Although I think on some level my subconscious must be slowly coming round to be possibility it may all be ok. I’m having less panic attacks and even less scary dreams- this is surely a sign of belief right? I like to think positive thoughts for the baby at much as I can, but that doesn’t mean I’ve walked through this pregnancy with rose-tinted glasses, quite the opposite in fact. I’ve been weary of getting my hopes up too much in case they get dashed again…

Preparations at home continue and we’ve almost finished sorting out the living room. It’s so close to be how I want it! There are still bits to do in ALL the rooms at home; however, the list is decreasing as the weeks go on. I’m certain we will be ready by 30th May which was the date I set for everything to be complete! I have picked out the cot and am ordering that this week so that’s another item off the list too!

Highlight of the week? I have 6 weeks, YES 6 WEEKS left until I should go maternity leave from work! I can’t believe how fast the time is going!
Low of the week? Nausea, nausea, nausea!!!


Week 14: No More Cheese, Please!


“Your little one is now able to rub its eyes, yawn and even blink. Your baby’s hairline is forming and hair is starting to grow on your baby’s head. Even the eyelashes and eyebrows are growing. If you’re hoping to find out the sex of your baby, unfortunately it’s still too early, but it won’t take long. Even though your baby is hiccupping regularly, there is no sound produced as your baby’s windpipe is full of fluid at this stage. Your baby can also hear sounds now. Your baby is now about 4 inches long and weighs around 2.5 ounces.

Your body is now prone to contracting flu, colds and other viruses during pregnancy. It’s not because you are unhealthy. Suppressing your immune system is your body’s way of making sure it does not reject your baby. You uterus continues to rise and by now you should be able to feel it just below your belly button. Due to your rising uterus your digestive space is reduced and you may begin to notice symptoms of heartburn. This can be avoided or reduced by eating smaller meals.” My Pregnancy App- Health & Parenting Ltd.

The first trimester is drawing to close, sadly for me however; my morning-sickness-in-the-evening, constipation and indigestion show no signs of abating just yet. I can’t help but think to myself “What was I expecting? I got off practically scott free for the 10 weeks…” I guess it’s my turn to suffer!

Another thing I notice as approach the 14 week mark the bump is starting to make an appearance! A lot sooner than last time I was pregnant- I start wondering if I’m harbouring a giant in there which prompts me to ask the sonographer whether the baby is in the ”normal” size bracket. I already checked with the consultant about the possibility of twins at the first scan and she assured me there was only one in there, still, it makes a girl wonder when showing this much earlier than last time.

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This time they have to do a cervical scan to check the length of my cervix.

For anyone unsure of how exactly they scan a cervix it involves an unwelcome looking plastic object, with I imagine some sort of scanner on the end, being pushed somewhere where it is definitely not welcome to scan the surrounding areas. A look of confusion passes between me and Mr W when she produces said object and asks her colleague for a condom. “Bit late for that” crosses my mind until I see her slip the condom over the “object” and cover it in lube. Nice.

A possible explanation of premature labour is a weak cervix and although they don’t think this was the cause of my last labour, they’re checking all avenues this time. The reason the scan can pick up on a weak cervix is that when a women goes into labour the cervix gets thinner and starts to open, so the scan is basically to check if the cervix is still thick and closed. Apparently if your cervix is thinner than 2.5cm there’s a risk of weakness there and the consultant will decide if it’s wise to insert a cervical stitch, technically known as a cervical cerclage- a word I still cannot say correctly despite several attempts!

This sounds a little scary but basically the mummy gets put under a general and the doctor puts in a purse stitch (for all you seasoned sewers) around the cervix to help it stay shut. They usually do this after 12-14 weeks and take the stitch out before 34 weeks… you don’t really want to be in labour with a stitch still in!

Luckily for me my cervix is measuring in “nice and long”. They’ll check again at 18 weeks.

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Baby looks fine; nice and relaxed apparently and were bundled off to have my bloods taken before seeing the consultant.

I repeat my giant child theory to the consultant who assures me the reason I’m showing more is

A. Because you do with second babies generally

And B. I conceived so quickly after having Harry my tummy muscles didn’t have a chance at shrinking back down, so I’ll probably get the stage I was size wise last time, stop for a bit and then start growing again.

No reason to panic. 🙂

She also says the fact I’m still feeling rough indicates the hCG hormone is strong- which is a good thing. ergo, sickness is actually a good sign- who’d have thunk it?

My next appointment is the anomaly scan 13th January followed by a meeting with Helen again 23rd January.

Highlight of the week? Its Xmas week next week, which means a two ½ working day week for me 🙂

Low of the week? A packet of cheese and onion crisps repeating on me so bad I projectile vomited for hours… no more C&O for a while!

Week 13: PMA, PMA, PMA!


“Your baby is now twisting and turning all the tiny joints in the body, and continually moving around inside your uterus. Lango- tiny hairs present all over the baby’s body- is growing. This will eventually turn into finger print patterns on your baby’s fingers. The baby’s skin is translucent and all the tiny veins in the body are visible. The lungs are continuing to develop. Your baby may already be sucking its thumb by now. Your peach sized baby can now frown, grimace and squint and your baby’s reflexes are becoming stronger and more frequent. Your baby’s arms are now proportionate to the body but the legs are still somewhat shorter. The baby is around 3.5 inches from crown to rump and weighs around 1.52 ounces.

You will notice your baby bump developing between your belly button and pubic line. Chances are your emotions are leveling out and you may not feel as pregnant as you have these past few months. Hormonal changes may cause constipation at this point. You may begin to notice more pronounced veins on your chest. Your areola is growing in diameter. This is your body’s way of preparing itself for breastfeeding.” My Pregnancy App- Health & Parenting Ltd.

This week is all about keeping a positive mind set and trying to reduce my stress levels.

My first port of call was to take up Yoga but my search for classes in my area has been completely fruitless! I can’t believe I can’t find anyone nearby who offers prenatal yoga classes? The only thing that came up was a class on a Tuesday at 1.30pm- no good for a 9 till 5-er! Nether-the-less my quest will continue! I may have to resort to a home DVD but at least it’s something.

photo 1My second port of call was to take up mediation and breathing exercises. Something I probably would have found incredibly relaxing, had I not chosen a mediation CD that was voiced by the most gangster sounding cockney I have ever heard. This dude literally sounds more cockney than Danny Dyer! So whilst I’m lead in bed trying to breathe deeply and imagine my happy place, every time I hear the bloke say REEELLLAAAXX I’m visited by the floating image of Ray Winston, which makes me laugh. At least I’m not stressing.

My third point of call to help combat my pregnancy related fears was to develop a mantra that I repeat over and over when I feel stressed… PMA- which stands for Positive Mental Attitude. Keeping a positive mental attitude is easier said than done but when I start stressing over the little things I say my mantra as an internal reminder to calm myself down, take a deep breath and smile.

Sadly, I do find myself accidentally saying it out loud and (even sadder) as I realised the other day, not only does PMA actually stand for para-methoxy-amphetamine (which is a new type of ecstasy pill) it can also easily be mistaken for PMS or PMT…

Unfortunately for myself I realised both of these things after a random trip to Tesco’s. So, as I found myself stressed out of my mind wandering aimlessly around the fresh veg aisle, trying to find certain ingredients to make up the dinner, I started chanting my little mantra under my breath “PMA PMA PMA”… Regretfully, my brain doesn’t seem to work like it used to pre-pregnancy and I hadn’t considered the fact that at the time I started chanting my mantra I was actually leaning over the shoulder of a sweet old lady trying to reach a red pepper. Of course, the dear old lady turned and looked at me as if I was completely bonkers and proceeded to move away from me as fast as her little legs would take her.

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I can only assume she thought I was:

A. Some sort of manic drug addict on a come down

B. On the edge of an epic premenstrual breakdown

or C. Just a complete lunatic who likes to whisper “PMA!!” in old ladies ears in a sinister tone.

It probably did not help that instead of my brain working all this out at the time and trying to do some damage control, I just stood there- right there where I was hovering over her shoulder, well in her personal space zone, whilst we locked eye contact and I gapped at her like a fish. Also, I imagine, having suffered a bad bout of morning-sickness-in-the-afternoon that very evening I probably looked (and smelt) a bit like a manic drug addict on a come down too.

Note to self- use the voice in my brain to chant calming mantras not the voice which speaks out loud and fingers crossed, little nugget will not be born in a Psychiatric Ward…

My symptoms are still very much present. I find I’m coping better as time goes on. It’s now just a part of my day-to-day life to spend hours in the bathroom of an afternoon- it’s all for a good cause, the best cause. My little bubba.

Highlight of the week? A nice snuggly night with the hubby watching films and chilling out ❤

Low of the week? Surprisingly not terrifying an old lady to death- Vomiting whilst driving my car… suffice so say McDonalds chips are off the menu for the foreseeable.